posted at8:24 PM by Shiyi
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Am back here again after 1 year. yeah!!!
so many things had happened over the one year.
Beginning with, I've never thought I will be celebrating valentine's day but I met someone! However, the chapter ended due to different views and understandings. As least now I heard from people she is happily with someone else that can her laughter and smiles.
Then SHIRO appears.
Shiro
looking at the photo, and looking back, I just hope I have done my job as a CGL and for those who supported my decision and understood me. I know you guys are meant to keep. whatever that happened, it's just a reminder for me that those are not my priorities and my purpose in uni.
the fittest period in 2016
As I set the pace for this semester, knowing the importance of this semester on whatever is on my plate, my drive and focus on academic was one of the highest. Despite the constant doubts and lack of confidence from time to time, these 2 men just kept pulling me back on track and stay focus whatever the result may be this Tuesday, 27 Dec, I know I've tried my best.
Yong Han, Kelvin and I at Jewel Visit at T3.
Lastly, it came to what I finally wanted to be part of, the welfare service club for the deaf community. it was after a conversation I had with Yurun in 2014 back in Ngee Ann that got me wanting to join. it's was the best decision I've made in uni thus far. I am in a community that shares a very distinct objective and by giving back, you learn even more.
It was even more fulfilling when I took the leap of faith to be part of song signing group. by spreading the love of Christmas, increase the awareness and the beauty of sign language. the amount of love and effort from the seniors make it even more fantastic. I am truly inspired by Jessica and would love to join her next year on the stage.
I told myself, I will want to end of 2016 with fondest memories, and so far, it has been nothing but lots of awesome moments till date. I will definitely miss this period so badly.
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there are so many thoughts in my head, but I can't say it. there's nobody to turn to as im on guard to whoever that's getting closer to me. luckily there's no one reading my blog. list of thoughts are as follows:
1. How long can this happiness last
-I'm so afraid the higher I go, the harder it crashes
2. is it the loneliness that I am fear of or I'm losing my independence.
3. am I too easily contented? it's as though I have lost the fighting spirit in anything.
4. should I have expectations on others like how I have for myself?
- wont that be imposing my ideas?
5. why, somehow, I feel this happiness is for a short span.
